When we don’t have time to say goodbye.
Sometimes we live as if we would be meant to live forever. Sometimes we live as other people would be meant to live forever. And when it doesn’t happen we are shocked. The time ran out.
I remember a friend of mine told me once:
– What I regret in my life the most is that I didn’t manage to say “I’m sorry” to my father. I believed I still had time to do it. And when he died from a heart attack I knew it will chase me for the rest of my life.
It made me thinking about me and my mother. Even though I could barely talk to her I was feeling bad about a day when she could be gone. I realized there’s no perfect time to fix the things out. There’s no perfect time to apologize. There’s no perfect time to start over.
But if we don’t want to regret one day we didn’t do something we should just do it right now.
The relationship between me and my mother still ain’t perfect. But I keep trying. Trying to make it work. Trying to heal this part of me which refuses to connect with her.
Every day is the day we say goodbye.
Enjoy the rest of the day as much as you can!