Life Story: Life must go on.
My beloved grandma,
I wake up every morning and I’m wondering if you see the same sunrise as I do. I’m wondering where you are. What are you doing now? Are you fine? Are you happy?
Another day, I asked you:
– Do you believe in life after death?
– No. – you replied.
– How is it possible all your life you pray to God and you don’t believe in life after death?
– When you grandpa was dying, I asked him to come back to me in my night dream and tell me if life after death really exists. He never came back in my night dreams.
Grandma, you were so simple in seeing the things. But your life wasn’t simple. You lost your mum at 12. You got married at 20. You lost your last child at 34. You had two strokes at 50. You lost your husband at 61. You lost your son at 76. You died at 86.
Grandma, can you hear me? Can you see me? Can you feel how much I suffer you’re not here anymore.
And I have to stay here and live without you. I promised you to see you soon. And the destiny didn’t let me say goodbye. I couldn’t hold your hand when you were passing away. I couldn’t tell you that everything is going to be alright. I couldn’t thank you for all you did for me.
I was looking at your coffin asking myself:
– That’s it? That’s all about this life? What is it for?
But another part of me told me:
– It’s not the end. It’s just the beginning of something new.
Grandma, my heart fills an immense emptiness. Terrible grief devastates my soul. But I know that this is the way the things are. And that it’s my turn to complete my story.
My life has to go on.
Grandma, I believe you’re in a better place. I believe you’re fine. I will be praying for you to be fine as you did for me all my life. I believe I will see you one day. We will seat on a bank in the light of the summer sun and as in the old days, we will enjoy being together. I will be holding my cup of coffee and you’ll be holding your cup of tea. I will hug you and will tell you how good is to be with you.
Rest in peace Grandma,
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